30 Days of Gratitude

Is 58:11, ‘I will give you a full life in the emptiest of places (MSG).’

Day 18 * Just Grateful: Warmly or deeply appreciative of kindnesses or benefits received; indebted and beholden

Who ever thought, Lord, that I would be able to rest in this place where I am found. I have struggled. I have fought back. My teeth have been clenched as I cried, ‘Why?’ You know! I have prayed for the night to never end and for the day to never come. I have been desperate before myself, despondent before You. I have talked to myself till I was blue in the face, and lonely stared back, never mumbling a word. I thought it was up to someone else to secure me, to fill me back up as my ideas and ideals and everything I deemed worthy seeped through the holes in my heart. I never had any clue that it was up to me. To count on You. Then You took me by the hand; You sat me on the space beside You and You whispered my name. The lonely didn’t seem so lonely anymore. The half empty began to fill again. The purchase was worth the price. I met me in that place. But I also met You. There will be hushed hours ahead, I am sure, but no longer will time shift like the silent years. The walls have ceased closing in and lonesome strums a peaceful melody. I reckon, Lord, that comes from liking You and accepting me. I am grateful, God, that You never left; that You found me and that I found me too! ‘So, I’m thanking you with all my heart, with gratitude for all you’ve done. I will do everything I’ve promised you, Lord. Psalm 56:12 (TPT).’