BE-Gratitudes: 30 Days of Positive Attitudes – Understood
November 19th, 2021
Day Nineteen: UNDERSTOOD
Psalm 139:1-6, ‘Lord, you know everything there is to know about me.
You perceive every movement of my heart and soul, and you understand my every thought before it even enters my mind. You are so intimately aware of me, Lord. You read my heart like an open book, and you know all the words I’m about to speak before I even start a sentence! You know every step I will take before my journey even begins. You’ve gone into my future to prepare the way, and in kindness you follow behind me to spare me from the harm of my past. You have laid your hand on me! This is just too wonderful, deep, and incomprehensible! Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength.’
How does it feel to be understood by the God of the Universe? It is a humbling truth to me. Since my precious daddy passed away, I am upside down and turned inside out. I haven’t felt like me for almost six weeks now since he went home to be with the Lord. I am so overjoyed for him, that he doesn’t have to suffer anymore, and he doesn’t have to struggle to breathe or get around with no strength or face each new day with a sigh of resignation. But for me and for the world that lost him, for those who never get the opportunity to know him or see Jesus through his eyes, I have felt so devastated. I also feel shame and guilt that his passing has been so tragic to me when I know that the Lord allows every single breath we take, and we are not given one more or one less He intends for each of us. I trust Jesus with this truth…then why has it hit me so hard? Why am I so overwhelmed and heartbroken when I know my dad is in the very presence of Jesus? Why am I so exhausted and unable to function?
I was pondering all of this again for yet another morning as I awoke, completely fatigued, and suddenly I heard the Lord say to me, “Child, you are drawing from an empty place, an empty well. You must press in and refill if you are to have anything to give away.” I felt so very loved in those few moments and with that handful of gentle words and simple truth. He was not only giving me the wisdom I needed and the freedom to grieve, but mostly, He was telling me He understood. He understands what I am going through and He also understands what you are going through too. Psalm 139 says He is intimately aware of each of us. He stepped into my future to prepare a way for me to navigate this painful path I am now on, and He understands the difficulty of each step, but He also knows I will be able to continue to walk out this journey until I see my dad again. Until then. I am so very grateful, Holy God, that you get me.
If you are feeling misunderstood or alone in your struggle, please know the God of the Universe, who created You for His good pleasure, understands you and loves you so deeply. You are always in His sight.
