Just Be 30 Day Challenge Michelle Gott Kim

Just Be 30-Day Challenge

September 4, 2020 Michelle Gott

Just Be At Peace – Day Four

Webster says ‘At Peace’ means in a state of agreement or friendliness, not at strife or war; in a state of inner harmony or quiet; a state of mutual harmony between people or groups, especially in personal relationships.
Synonyms: conciliatory, steady, harmonious, peaceful, tranquil

God says in Romans 12:18 ‘If possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone (AMP).’
I’m at odds with someone right now. Several someones. They are someones whom I deeply care for. This rift, this unpeaceable treaty, this disturbance has caused me much insecurity and a demolition of self. It has upended me and reinvented me. It caused me to travel deep within myself, and while I have unraveled, while I have come undone, I have been forced to reflect, to look in all the crevices where I hide, and to get to know myself; not as I saw me, not as I wanted others to see me. But who I really am and who God wants me to be. Which is a verb, an action.

I think most of humanity is alike. I think we have an inert objective to protect ourselves, to defend ourselves, our platforms, our showcases, our plights. No one will fight better for you and what you hope for than you will for yourself, right? But relationship is difficult, necessary because God created us for one another, but arduous, all the same. Relationship sits as the judge and juror and at the very heart of every moment each day. If you don’t do relationship than you likely are hidden in a cell, either of your own choosing or someone else’s, but let’s be honest, we knock knees with acquaintances, family and friends consistently. And when we have a rough patch with someone we love or who loves us, it can be devastating. We lose ourselves over it and in it; sometimes we even snap to, to realize someone we loved had been removing him or herself from us a little bit at a time ‘til suddenly they are gone.

So my loss has been significantly felt. I have wanted to grandstand. I wanted to say everything I felt, everything I had done and said and wanted to do and say, every way I had been misrepresented and misunderstood. But, God said, ‘No, child, you don’t need to defend yourself; I am the Defender of your heart and the Lifter of your head. It is my position to defend you for I have redeemed you.’ And, furthermore, he reminded me that my place is to live at peace with everyone, and if that means taking the high road, sister, then that is what we are commanded to do. Bite your tongue. Swallow your pride. Hold your head high and be the lady God created you to be.